Im not in love....Im just sleepy!

Hey. I don't really know what I'm going to say in this post, but i felt the need to write.

I'm pretty tired right now, because i only got three lovely hours of sleep last night. I spent the whole night texting. I know it sounds stupid and that i don't have a life, but i have really been getting to know this guy through these silly questions we ask each other. I know the first question that is racing through your little brain right now is "Oh Does Audrey have a crush?" The truth is I don't. (At least not yet.) Ha Ha Its just nice to have a friend that will make you laugh and such when your day has been nothing but crap. So...I was texting him all night until 4:00 A.M. then we finally decided to go to bed. I woke up at 7:00 A.M. (for those who are a bit slow at math, that would be THREE ours later..) to go skateboarding. Surprisingly enough i wasn't tired. I didnt do much skating cause i was a little out of it. I had a lo on my mind, but my company was greatly apprciated against the cold concrete. I wasnt tired until after lunch. It was like i was over come with an illness. I couldn't keep my eyes open. While walking through Target i probably looked like the living dead stumbling through the merchandise. The pajama section made me want to put a pair on a sleep. I got home and took a four hour nap. I woke up and was all confused about why i was wearing the clothes i had on, and why my parents were cooking downstairs. They never cook breakfast. Ha Ha. So now I'm falling asleep again.

Today my day was pretty average. Nothing to exciting. I skated, shopped, ate, and then hung out with my "friends" (Friends is in quotes cause I'm not sure about a few of them right now...) The total norm.

So what do you think Jake?

I have no skin on my wrist and ankle. And my hip hurts so bad. But I am living life. The past few days i have been waking up early (i know that rarely happens...) and going skateboarding with my Dad. It has been a ot of fun, and i have enjoyed the time spent with my Dad and younger sister. I aslo think i have improved. I have gotten really good at falling on my ass and scrapping skin off i know that for sure! I have some battle scares for the books. And my hip is like a giant pain ball glued to a piece of fat. I have wacked it two times and the other time someone else did the wacking with his board! Sometimes i wonder if I am wearing a sign around my neck that says "try hitting me I break easily" People are always knocking into me, pushin, shoving. I dont know. Maybe its just fun to push me over! :)

I have been talking to my friend Jake the last few minuets.Now Jake is one of those people you just have to be friends with. He is always fun to hang with and he just tells the truth as it is. Very recently (like in the past ten minuets) He has told me that blogs are usally boring becasue they just talk about what you have done during the day. It is way true. I sat here trying to think if a way to prove him wrong. I couldnt. So im just going to warn you that the posts to follow are going to be amazing!

Xoxo!

Unhappy, Happy, Cant stop Laughing!

Today started off poorly. The CRT showed up at the SOJO skatepark all ready to do an event. There was a powerade truck, verizon was giving away a free phone-everything! I was super excited. At the end of registration we only have 12 people competing out of our hopes of at least 30. The event went by so quickly, and it was kind of boring. I wasnt very happy.

The night was better. We went to the Arts Festival. I love seeing the works or art and the different people of the beautiful city of Salt Lake. We watched this concert of (i cant remember his name, its like Chuck something and the Rain somethings). That was pretty good. So i just got home!

Okay so I went on my Facebook page right? And there is this thing called Honesty Box where someone can send you a note with out you knowing who it was who sent it, just the gender. Well i got one that said "I cant stand you" from a girl. These sort of things dont bother me cause i honesty dont care what people think of me. But anywho- So i write back. "Alright, Doesnt concern me." The reply to that made me giggle. It said something like "well actually people might actually like you if you were nice and actually sweet. your little "i'm an angel" crap is so fake. too bad you don't really have friends" I thought it was funny. I havent replied yet, but if you have something clever please share.

Till Then. Later!

What a non- eventful day!

I started the day shopping with Grandma. It was a long, painful, full of patients, activity! We went everywhere, looked at everything, and bought nothing! Ha ha quality time with Grandma will always be remembered. We got home from shopping with Grandma at like three in the afternoon, i went and working on my Summer Reading Essay for Tess of the D'ubervilles. I know you are all screeming at the computer screen asking why in the hell would you be working on summer homework now? Well the trth is I need to get it all done, because i will be gone all July! Eek! (for more info on my July trip, wait until the end at the ****) So i got that all done- im completly finsihed with all my summer homework. During my work i fell asleep and took a nice thirty minuet nap. Ahh Relaxing! Then I had dinner, home made pizza, skated, found Kate, Nat, and Morg, and Tor, and went to Kate's house for a dance party. It was pretty insane. Then i came home. And here I am writing.

I honestly dont have much to say.

Other than you should come to the SOJO Skate event tomorrow. The last of Utah!

*****Okay so about my reason for leaving the state for all of July! On July 4th i will be leaving with my Dad on te Concrete Rodeo Tour ( the skate event you should know about already) I will go to all the stops in Idaho just with my Dad and then my Mom and Sis will pick me up an dtake me with them to Depo Bay Oregon where we will then travel down the coast! YAY Im so excited!!

Get up- Get out and Get over IT!

Good Morning. My last few posts have been really sad and depressing and it just seems that i exaggerate my feelings and such, so it looks like my life completely sucks...right? Well that's wrong. My last few posts about me being all depressed and such have gotten alot of comments so i felt like that is what the readers wanted-that's not. The comments were screaming out loud for me to stop crying through my blog, get up and get over it. And that's what I am doing. Its kind of like the news you watch on T.V. they show all the tearful and terrible events happening in the world just because it gets more attention. For every bad thing showed a million happy events have been played out that day. But no one is interested in the Graduating class at the U, or how some new invention has been made. We like to listen to the War, huger, deathly tomatoes. So my goal from now one it just to write my day. Not just the bad, but the things that make each day worth living! So get ready get set.....oh im gone!

'Til then, let the hurtful messages continue to send.

What do you think of when you hear the word friend? Trust worthy, honesty, laughter, always there for you. . . .right now when i say friends- i feel like a should put quotations around it- i think of back talking, decent, lies, and turning against. I have friends in all groups, all ages. I also have a group of friends my age, i always hang out with, and they don't like/know my other friends. That group has turned against me. (well not really all of them...i think they are just goin through a phase) Today i was told some of the things people have been saying when I'm not hanging out with them cause I'm to busy. Some think I'm a two faced brat, while others think that i think I am to good for everyone. I don't care what people think of me, i never had, they can have their opinions, but when they are some of your close friends you seem t feel about hurt. Right now i just feel like crying. I know there is more to life then this stupid drama but it just hurts. Good thing that I am leaving July 4Th for a whole month and wont have to deal with it. I cant wait. But until then let the hurtful messages continue to send.

Hard work, A lot of fun, Amazing skaters, and Christian Serika!

When a lot of people here the word SKATEBOARDING they imagine a board, riding down the street. After watching a Concrete Rodeo Event, you will never think of skating the same way. On both Saturday and Sunday I helped my Dad run the Concrete Rodeo Skate Tour. I was amazing. I have been doing this for about three years, and i have to admit, its what I look forward to the most. Let me tell you all about it, cause I know none of you were there (tee hee, i had to throw in some guilt)

Saturday morning I woke up at 5:15 a.m. I got dressed in my skull shirt and plaid shorts, pulled my hair up into a high, tight pony tail and got into the our ginat white truck. My Mom and Dad were sitting in the front seats leaving me in the back. I was in the middle, Anthony to my left and Gabrielle to my right. The ride was only about an hour and a half but sitting in the middle of two sleeping snoring people made it seem oh so much longer. We arrived at the Logan skatepark. Without being asked what to do (cause by now we all knew the drill) We unloaded the back of the truck, which was packed high tide with stereos, tables, prizes, and other equippment. After the tent was set up and everything was good to go, I got registration ready. Im in charge of registration. Every boy who walks up to the tent gives me $25 and his phone number (okay so i get all his information and insurence and then i give him a shirt for entering but it sounds cooler when guys are just paying me and giving me their numbers...right?) Registration closed at 10:30, leaving us with 55 entries. We typed them into the computer, generated a random start list, and started the event. We were short on judges ( cause we just get them from local skate shops and such. Sometimes they dont show up at all or are drunk and suffering from a hang over) so Anthony had to announce and judge and my Dad had to judge. It was alright. Anthony is not the best announcer because he trys to call tricks he doesnt know at all, or he will like make tricks up. (For example he said something like a lip slide bonless-there is no possible way to do that- your board would be all which ways. Or he wold call a hand plant a melon something. I dont know, but it really annoyed me.) So let me just give the heads up about these events. Every competitor gets two one minuet runs (i know a minuet doesnt seem long but when you are the one skating it could be the longest minuet of your life.) Then after everyone ha taken their two runs (which decide age group prizes) the top 16 get to joust for 1st 2nd and 3rd. (Joust-head to head compotition, two people skating at the same time, person with the better run moves on.) So rewind. After a skater does a run the judges fill out score sheets. Then my sister Gabrielle runs over, takes the sheets, staples them all together and gives it to me. I then type the score into the computer giving me the final score. I have my own microphone which I announce the score. Its pretty awesome (Score for Logan Winkelaar 70.3, 70.3) The event went well as a whole, and Logan is a great skatepark. It was extremly hot though. I was sweating so bad and all i had to do was sit under a tent. We gave out awards, packed up, and were out of the park at 7:00. When we reached SLC we went to storage to pack up the truck with the additional stuff needed for the next days event. We had dinner at Taco Time (eww) Oh and may i add that Staurday was the first day of summer, the longest day of the year and GO SKATEBOARDING DAY!

The next days event was pretty much the same. I woke up at 6:00 instead because the Layton skate park only took a half an hour to get to. We set up blah blah. The best park though was when Christian Serika came to register! Christian is my giant crush. I have liked him since the moment i saw him. He is amazingly good looking and a really good skater. He is always nice. AHH. See he is short, he is 19 (but age dont really matter to me) but i love him. He came to the event which just made my heart soar. AHH. The event went well. But it wasnt our best, becasue the judges were choosing favorites and the people i felt should have won didnt. I dont know. But My Dad announced which makes the event go faster and everyone has fun (Oh if they got any closer they would be married) I only truly screwed up on announcing one kids name: Thats a funny story. So this kid comes up to the tent and says "Whats my score" "Who are you" "Tristian Cooper- remember you messed up on my namewhen announcing it (he giggled)" " Oh yeah sorry about that" "Oh its fine. I have never been called Trishtian before. It was really funny" "Thats what im here for, to entrain you guys by runining your names, Im not the best with pronouncing them" "Then why did they give you the microphone" "Who the hell knows" " Ha Ha no i like when you announce, you sound cool on it" "Thanks, your score was 50.7" "Thank you"......ha ha i know funny stuff. I also had some kid come p to me and say "Audrey what is my score?" I had no idea what his name was until he told me and i had only seen him once at registration. It was pretty awesome how poeple know me! We finnished the event and cleaned up. Drove back to SLC and went to Chipolate. YUM!

They were alot of fun. Stop 22 and 23. Only about 20 more events to go. The next Utah on is Friday June 27, 2008 in South Jordan at the SOJO Skate park. It wil be pretty amazing. Check it out.

Until Next time. See Ya!

forgiven.

If you have been reading this you know the recent events dealing with Spencer... .right? Well here is the deal. I was mad at him, i mean he got mad at me for something way simple, but anyways- I wasn't going to really forgive him, but still wanted us to be friends. (now that I'm looking back in the whole situation i realize how stupid i was being. I acted like i got my boyfriend cheating, how lame was I, goodness) I wasn't going to forgive him until Anthony left the longest most well thought out comment on my last post (Thank You) telling me what i needed to hear. When you have someone from the out side tell you what your actions are clearly showing you understand a bit more, So what did i do? Right after i read it i picked up my phone and told Spencer I forgave him. I said sorry for my half of the deal-e and such, but i felt alot better. I'm not really sure if he accepted it cause he didn't say much back, but as long as I did my part, he will come around. Through all of this i learned a few things: Before taking action and writing everything you think you feel down on your blog-think about it. (Thinking is usually not something i do, but it helped, maybe i will do it more often now!)

Going Unnoticed Under a Cloud of Feelings.

Okay so remember my last post, the one about Spencer sucking his girlfriends finger? Well keep that stored in the back of your head. . . .

Last night, around 11:00 I was sitting on the couch watching some Disney Channel Show (i was so upset i didnt even notice), IM Jacob when i got a text from Spencer...It read "I dont want her to move :( :( :( :("- For those who dont know Spencer's sucking toy/girlfriend is moving to California at the end of the Summer. Anyways. So i was trying to be funny and wrote back " Yeah its going to suck when you dont have her fingers to suck on...lol" He got so mad at me. I text him saying im sorry and was only joking. He blew up going on about how it pissed him off and hope he cam to me for comfort and i just ruined it and such. Then he stopped texting me. I just let it go. It wasnt worth fighting for.

Then this Afternoon i got another text from Spencer. he was blaming me for telling Rachel (his girl-friend) about all his past relationships and such-which i hadnt. It was like the atomic bomb blew up. I had know idead what was happening and why i deserved this treatment. It was insane. I make one sarcastic joke and suddenly the world has stopped spinning. I was so confused so i didnt right back.

Around 6 o clock i got a three texts from spencer. They explained to me about how if its uncomfortable for me to see him with Rachel i dont need to hang out with them anymore. And if they go all "lovey dovey" in public he will stop. (I was screeming at him inside) It went on about how something had got between us and he wanted to mend it and such (I will tell you what got between us buddy....) I didnt reply. I mean how could I. He had been such a jerk! He was being a jerk. Then i got another text. From Spencer. Saying how sorry he was and how is was a jerk and just really frustrated. I still didnt reply. He was being such a suck up and i hated it.

To make my beautiful summer day so much more delighting i went to Sam's house to hang out. Tori, Jacob, Aaron, Chase, SPENCER, and Sam, were all there. Honestly from the beginning i didnt know why i was there. I didnt want to be. We played some X box game where you shot terrorists- which i didnt like. I got so bored and just needed some air so i went outside. I was out there for like thirty minuets before someone checked on me. Spencer of all people wanted to know where i was. I told him trying to be nice. He didnt seem to care. When outside i felt like i was going to just cry. I almost did. Spencer spent most of the time ignoring me. Or when he did talk to me he would look some where else. He was being so dramatic. Like all this was my fault. Like i broke up with him. It was Pathetic. I left early. My dad came and picked me up. No one noticed i had left.

OMG! PDA? WTF....LOL

Hello my friends. Im back. Okay so i have to tell you about my intresting experience last night. So it begins at Katelin's house. We were sitting in her basement playing Guitar Hero. Spencer and his girlfriend we getting close on the edge of the couch. I was sitting on the other chair with Katelin and Tori. I looked over and Spencer was sucking on Rachels fingers. Full finger in the mouth. It was so gross. I mean she wont let him kiss her but he can sure suck on her. Come on! Total PDA (ha ha Brady just taught me what that meant) It was so awkward.
Then to add topping on the cake i talked to my friend Jacob. Jacob is like my best friend. I can trust him with anything, so when he asked me straight up if i like Spencer (sucking fingers dud) I was like only as a friend why? It turns out that Spencer thinks i have a huge crush on him. He also thinks that i get mad everytime i see him with Rachel (puke maybe...but not mad-ha ha) So that was just amazing! But i was really thankful that Jacob told me. Ugh.

Okay so lets race forward in time..to like TODAY. I didnt do much. I read a 100 page book for History about the Holcaust. It was scary. I made up a dance solo-which is pretty awesome. Visited Natalie at Lunas. Yeah not much. Then tonight i went to the park with my little sister. It was fun. We were a little photo crazy. I enjoyed hanging out with her-she is my best friend.

Well my summer isnt to exciting but-oh well! Talk to you sooner than later!

Guitars and Skateboarders...WTF?

I have so many dreams i cant stand it anymore. I want to play the guitar like i used to. I have the guitar i just cant play it. I want to learn to be really good on a skateboard. I have the board, just no skill. Okay so i dont have alot but that is what im going to work on. Im going to need your prayers though (Our Father who arent in heaven hollow be thy name and forgiv Audrey, she knows not what she does) That is what im going to work on the next few days. So check in with me to keep the update.

On Friday is the Concrete Rodeo Tour Event in (uh....i dont remember) But anywho im super excited. I love to help run these things. I wake up at six in the morning to go set up at the skate park. We set up tents and banners. Get music playing by seven o clock to drive the near by neighbors crazy (great stuff when they come put in their robes and slippers and start yelling at us about how they own a bakery and stuff) Registration (which i run) starts at 9. Everytime a boy comes up they give me their number and twenty five dollars (shh....its registration stuff.....shh) I love it. Then the compotition starts at 11. Each competetor (spelling?) gets two 1 minuet runs. Then the top sixteen joust (head to head compotition) Its exciting. And if your reading this (which i doubt there is ever) You should totally come.

Any way...you should leave a comment. YEAH

xoxo

Unplanned Weirdness!

Today I woke up at like 12 o'clock. It was amazing. I went out to lunch with grandma, mom, and sister at Blue Plate. It was delicious. Then i cleaned, i know its not something i do, but i did it, for my Dad who is coming home tomorrow. I am so excited! He has been off running skateboard events on the other side of the country with Anthony. Anthony is this kid who works with my Dad. He has been living in our basement, and i have gone to school longer than he has just by completing my freshman year in high school. I know, SAD. But any who. Then Spencer and his girlfriend decided to drop in. They invited themself over and came and just played gutair hero. It was kind of awkward they sat really close together and were all flirty. I know i know, they are DATING but i was still there. Spencer then invited Aaron and Chase. That grew more weird. So i invited Amy. At the end i had a house hold full of people i wasnt planning on and a history of two hours of Gutair Hero. It was weird. I would text people and Amy would say TALK TO THE PEOPLE YOUR WITH. The problem was, i didnt want all these people. And now i have to clean my living room. I dont want sympathy, but that was my WonderFUL day.

Who exactly is your GF dating?

I sit down to write this pretty irritated....which doesnt happen to me alot. Okay well i have this friend, His name is Spencer. He has a girlfriend, at least that is what he calls her. But recently im so confused on who he is dating. It seems like the rest of us, us being his friends/group has to cater to Rachel's needs. He has only seen her twice. After the first meeting he asked her out, she said yes. Anyways, he made this huge thing to hang out with her, invited us all and such..He made it so we all have to meet at Natalie's. Natalie has to work tomorrow, so he told Rachel that it was canceled. He ownt see his own girl friend cause he cant use natalies house. So what does he do....Says we can do it at my house. I hate it. He like pushing the giant red button that doesnt need to be pushed. So i bravely said "Why not your house, it is YOUR girlfriend." He was like....uh......oh....and then okay i guess. I think he expected me to say okay we can do it at my House. So now we are going to his house. WOOOO..... Tomorrow at 1:00 his girlfriend is comming to my house to walk up to spencers because shes worried about what her grandma will say if she knows she is going to a boys house..oohh. Its going to be intresting.

Thats all i have to say. AHH! Later.

Hard to feel like you "fit in"

Hey. Its me. The one who usally writes on this thing. Well im in kind of a weird mood. I just got home from hanging out with my friends. We were at Sam's house. I came kind of later than everyone else. The minuet i walked through the door i felt slightly out of place. I went down the stairs following behind Sam as he led the way. I walked in the room and it seemed like all eyes were on me. (Which they probably werent) I walked over and hugged Lindsay, whom i hadnt seen for forever. Then i sat awkwardly on the floor. Trying to come into the "going no where" conversation. It was like that all night. I tried to be fun and invite people to go outside or walk down to the nearby school. But no one wanted to go, so.....Lindsay and I went.

While walking we walked past this lady that was drawing with chalk out on her drive way. Sure it was like what you and me use but her drawing looked amazing. Like the picture was a photograph or painted. It was so cool. She told us about the chalk walk down at Gateway she was in and was practicing for. I was amazed. We finally reach the school playground. It was alot of fun. We played hopscotch with these huge chunks of wood. I was just enjoying life.

We went back to the house and was ridiculed by the boys for being to childish. I dont know. The rest of the night was pretty boring. I felt like i didnt belong. I kind of wanted to just cry. You know when your completly surrounded by people, but you feel so alone? I felt like that. I probably should have just left and said i didnt feel good, but i didnt. I think im afriad that i will miss something. So i stayed. I got a ride home from Jacob's parent. I sat in the back of the truck with Morgan and Spencer. It was probably the best part. It was dark, and the wind blowing through my hair. I just felt free. No worries, no problems.

I got home and got a text from my friend that said that he thought i was staring at him all night. I feel really weird about it cause he has a girlfriend. Its not like i like him like that or something. Just the fact that everyone thought i was staring at him a bit much......Then to make my night just perfect my other friend kind of said that he was mad-in a nice way- for telling my other friend that he cared about her. Not in like a creepy i like you way, but as a friendship, like as he would for any of us. But the fact that she told him, kind of bummed me out.

I just want all this drama to go away. Im sick of it. With girlfriends, small disputes, misunderstandings and all......i just dont think its going to end.

9pm, a blanket, the moon, and a pair of ears

You know poeple trust you when they call you up at 9 o'clock on a friday night and ask if they can come over just to talk about something.

Last night my friend (names not given) told me she needed to talk with me and wanted to come over. I said of course, i mean i hadnt been doing anything that night that was thrilling, so why the hell not. I got two blankets, turned the back deck lights on and made some lemonade while i was waiting. (We never used the lemonade, but it looked amazing sitting on the kitchen counter) I heard her voice talking to someone so I ran up and opened the door. We sat on the deck and talked until 11 o'clock and her parental gaurdian made her leave. Sure say its just a chick thing, talking for hours about random stuff on our minds. (some guys can talk about anything with someone and the completely understand too) But i have to say it made me look at my life differently as i listened to my dear friend stressing.

She talked about her first kiss and how amazing it was. It made me realize how bad i really did wanted to fall in love. I want to find someone who can hold me close and tell me everything. Some one who can completely trust me and i him. But at the same time i dont. I like living where you can like the cute guys, all six of them. And can have fun just hanging out with them and going to movies like best friends. I dont want to complicate things or get people mad or start drama that no one needs. My mom says that she didnt go out (as in becoming boy friend and girlfriend) all through high school and when she got to college, the boys admired the not "over done" girls. Is it bad that i still want my first kiss. I want to go to dances and take my time getting ready for a night that will end way to soon. I want to get butterflys in my stomache when he askes you to dance. But i dont want it to all come so fast and be over. (i really went of subject, but isnt that what blogs are to do, make you write about what you are feeling?) i probably sound like some dramatic teen right now. But i think im more of a dreamer. And you cant stop that.

Thats all i have to say. It wasnt much, it didnt make sense, but its there written, and you did read it to this point.
Until next time- See ya!

Xoxo

Remember to never Forget.

Yesterday had to have been one of the most tearful days of my life. At 10 A.M. i went to my sisters graduation from 6th grade. I know I know, its not like she is leaving or something.Just switching schools, but she is growing up. They played a slide show with all the sad graduation songs. I wasnt crying until they started the section when the graduates were little. I saw my sister through all her years.It brought back so many memories. She is growing up and i cant believe my best friend in the whole wide world will be going into 7th grade. I always felt that was going to happen in the long run, but here we are. She wrote me a note that made me tear up. It goes something like this:

Audrey,

I cant sleep so i decided to write you a note like you said to do. I'm excited and not excited for summer. I dont want to leave Uintah, and I am not sure about Clayton. I dont want to grow up. I dont want you to leave me and go to college. We were supposed to have an apartent together, I cant wait until we are in the same school again. I love you. Have a good day.

xoxo,
Gabrielle


After the graduation her grade went to Boondocks. I waved goodbye as the crowded yellow bus drove away. In the meantime i got ready for Senior Wills. I had to look just right, cause i wouldnt see alot of those people ever again (or at least not a lot.) For you who are not a drama geek, Senior Wills, are object that have been passes down by the drama department that have special meanings. Its a tradition. It started at seven. I skateboarded my way up to Amber and Amy's house for the party,

First we signed year books. It was mass chaos. The minuet someone was done writing in someone elses they would shout "Who needs this persons" and the room would yell. It was pretty funny. Then we watched a slideshow about our drama year. It was so amazing to see how everyone has changed from the starting of the year to the end. I couldnt help but smile when pictures of HSM came on and everyone around me started singing the songs. what great memories.

Then came senior wills. Each senior with a will stood up in front of the crowd and talked about each item and who they get to go to and why. Morgan Callaway, sat up there, in her Pirate's shirt, and talked. It made me think how i will hardly see her again. No more notes, no more passing by eachother on B days in the C hall. I started to tear up, and that was before she called my name for the red rose. (Red Rose: Goes to someone who is loving, caring and trusting.) It happened so fast. I just reached out a grabbed it from her, flashing her a smile. I really wish i would have stood up and hugged my dear friend. But i didnt, i was still in shock that me, a quiet freshman got something. It was all somthing new to me. Then my phone kept going off. It was my parents, so i crept outside for a secound. I ran into Morgan. I gave her a hug that i wish could last a lifetime, and handed her my little gift. Thats all. I get so nervous that i will screw something up or say something stupid in front of her cause she is like my idol. Im waking out to call my worried parents when everyone started shouting "Audrey you got a senior will" So i turned around and awkardly walked up to Ryan Rose who was holding the cutest stuffed puppy. He told me it was the Baby Will (Goes to the Baby of the drama department. The cute and innocent that you just want to hug.) I took it, should have given hi a hug to, said thank you and walked out to call my parents.

When i came back a few others have gone. I said down in my spot on the floor next to Amy and Erica. Yet i didnt know the hours to come would kill my butt while sitting in that spot, but i guess it was worth it.

Jillian Murdock came up. She started talking. I just looked at her with full sadness that she was leaving. I knew Jillian before i came to East. We had taken dance together the year before, One thing i remember about that dance class is we did a part called the "Magical Forest". It was a partner part. I remember Jillian asking to be my partner. I was so excited. Her was one of the oldest, prettiest, most talented girls in my class, and she wanted to be MY partner. I couldnt stop smiling that night. -Anyways, she was talking right. She held up a princess crown. It was defentially a Jillian orginal. It had the sparkles and everything. She started talking about how the will was for a senior girl to give a underclassmen that she felt was like a sister. I listened to her and was guessing it was Lydia or Molly, cause those two seem to be best buds. She looked at me and said my name. I got up, tears streaming down my face, took the crown and gave her a hug. (I had learned my lesson-hugs are a good thing during this)

I was so happy (Yet a little jelous that Kramer kissed Erica on the forehead, and Katrina got the "Scent of Kramer" :)-) that I, a freshman, got all these senior wills, but yet i was streaming with tears, because most of these people i wont see again. The drama department has created a family for me. You dont get that from your friends who arent in drama. Sure the drama people are a bit weird. But they are the ones i admire the most. I hugged everyone, even if i didnt really know them. Jocelyn came up to me and we hugged. I hugged her like she was my best friend. I really wish i could have gotten to know her better. She is the cutest thing. (My parents love her too from take five. They just could not get over the fact that such a skinny girl could stuff so many cream puffs into her mouth (:)

They all promised to come back, and im sure they will. I mean Chase Toyn never graduated. He is always in the audience, laughing and clapping the loudest. It just wouldnt be a production without him. Im going to miss all of them. I mean who will crowd the C hallway now?

"As we go on, we remember all the times we spent together, and as our lifes change from whatever, we will still be friends forever"- Graduation, Vitamen C

When one adventure ends, Another begins!

Today, being the last day was a day filled with excitement. The school all crowded into the gym for the farewell assembly. Which was probably the most boring assembly i have watched.
My favorite part had to be when the dance company performed, because i love to dance. (For those who did not know i tried out for Dance co.I worked my butt off and didnt make it, but i still love watching them perform.) My favorite people to watch is Bree and Ashley. They always look like they are having fun and its not just for show.

Then they released us into the slightly cooler hallways. Everyone pushing and shoving their ways to get to the yearbook lines first. We signed yearbooks. During this, i relized how many people i didnt know> Searching through the crowded hallways i tried to find everyone i wanted to sign my yearbook. Of course, I didnt. I tried to write personal notes in every single one, cause yearbooks are a keepsake, and i dont want people to look back and see what a careless job i did. I want them to read it and check filled with memories. Some i kind of got nervous cause i didnt want to mess up or write something stupid cause i care so much about them. For example: Morgan C. and i have been writing these notes to eachother all year long. Its kind of been our little thing. I dont know. But when she came and tapped me on the back with her pen asking me to sign her yearbook my writing skills diapeared. I didnt want to mess up or sound like a dork. But of course, i had to scribble out a mistake, and spelled at least one word completly wrong. I kind of wish i could go back and fix it. Oh well.

After i got all the signatures i could find, i walked up to Herbert with Natalie and Morgan D, to our friend Tori's house. In her basement there was like a little party of all my close freshmeat friends. We all read our yearbooks and talked out each comment made in eachothers. Some of them i was kind of sad cause i felt like they would have written something more, but over all they all said the same thing "You are so cute, I will miss you, Have a great summer, call me, This class was fun, bluh bluh." There were a few that really meant somthing. When reading some of the seniors notes to me i kind of got tears in my eyes. Its weird to think that they will be gone and wont crowd the C hall way next year. Im really going to miss alot of them. Ecspecially the drama nerds (I LOVE YOU) When you are little and people sign your year book, even if they are in like 6th grade, you know you will see most of them in the years to come cause you all feed into the same schools. But when you're a senior in High School you get to go live your life, and possibly see a few familiar faces over the years.

When we had fnnished reading most of our yearbook ( i had only gotten through half of my notes by the time everyone else was done) me and six other boys walked back to Ted's house and had a party. It was fun. You wouldnt be able to imagine the looks i got while walking down the street surrounded with these guys. And not all the looks were very friendly. After a while a few more people showed up (girls too) and we had a much bigger party.

At Ted's we jumped on his tramp and played Dead Man Dead Man. I was only it like three times,but that was just because Jacob and Spencer would give the "dead" guy direstions to get me. Its was terrible. During this we had dinner prepared by Ann, Ted's Mother", which was very delicious. The whole party started to get kind of Awkward. Jaron had come over nad Natalie went all crush on him, acting like a complete fool trying to get his attention. She would bat her eyes and tell him how wonderful he was. It was like a chic flick gone wrong. To add to the excitement this kid name Aaron came over. Aaron likes me. ALOT. And he is kind of creepy. He tells me about dreams he has where he is takking off his shirts and then asks me how i like my steak cooked. He tried everything in his power to be next to me or touch me. We played basketball and he kept gaurding me, backing up his butt into me, or grbbing my shoulders to tell me something. He even held onto my hand while i was trying to shoot the basket. (that would have made it in and we would have won a point) I felt really uncomfortable so i tried to hang out with Spencer and Jacob the most that i could. They are two of my most favoritest people. I really felt like we became closer friends tonight, and i needed that. Other than the creeper, i had quite a fun time. I think this might just be a taste of what is to come in the next summer months.

Heres to the night! Im no longer a Freshman.and I am now a Sophmore. ---YAY----

Tomorrow is the last day!

Hey for all you that go to East. . . Im so excited for the last day. (i mean im not going to school anymore) Its finaly going to be summer. That means staying up late, hanging out with friends non stop, and having the a blast. It also mean that the Concrete Rodeo Skateboarding Tour will need/want my help. The CRT is the skateboarding tour my Dad has created. 40 cities, and like 21 states. I run registration and annouce the entries scores. And there are alot of cute guys! Everytime they see me they hand me there phone number and twenty five dollars (so its for the entry and registration, but i can pre tend cant I?)

I dont have much to say. And the words dont flow too easy as it does to Anthony, but oh well. I will message you later.

Sunday Sanity. . . Old people, a board, a guy, and a dream

Today was my Grandfather's 90th birthday. I know that is like way old, but he is holding on. We bough his this cheesy sparkle hat that had HAPPY BIRTHDAY written on the front. He put it on and gave us a smile which rarely happens through pictures. It was so cute (in that old person way) During this party i got to talk to my cousin (who is like my brother) that i haven't been able to talk to in like forever so that was nice.
After the party i was skateboarding down the steet by emogration market, and someone kicked a ball out into my path. The guy that ran out to get it was my cousin. He was hanging out with his friend Drew. I gave him a hard time and the turned and met Drew's eyes that were staring at mine intently. My cousin feeling slightly akward said "Drew Audrey, Audrey Drew" I said Hi. Drew was kind of short, with thick brown hair. His eyes were gorgous but i dont remeber the color. And he was funny as can be. He kept sticking up for me when my cousin jokingly told me to go home (even though home was like three houses away) I finaly left them to there soccer and kept skating. I cant stop thinking of him. I want to talk to himm again but i dont want him to think im like a creep. I know its funny.
So i just read all the blogs about the senior prom. I am so excited for dances. They sound like so much fun. A date, looking beautiful, dancing. I cant wait. AHH. But i guess i shouldnt push them. I still have some life to live and if i wish to much they will go by way to fast.
Im going to go. Please leave a comment. Talk to you later.

New Outfit to match my Disapointment.

I just got home and its 12 in the morning. I have been at Gateway Mall all night. I went shopping (cause thats what everyone else at the MALL was doing, and i wanted to fit in) I ended up getting three shirts at Urban Outfitters. I went to dinner at Costa Vida up by the movie theater. It was okay. The cheese in my cheese enchilada wasnt melted which made me kind of sad. To add to my saddness i went to see the new Indiana Jones movie. It wasnt my favorite. I found it cheesey. The aliens were quite a reach. (I would see it again) So that made me a bit upset too. But over all my day was pretty good. I love how warm it is outside. It was perfect, making it wonderful to go topless in the car. (Topless as in the top of my convertible bug is off and my top is still on :) Im kind of tired and think i should get some sleep so i can go celebrate my Grandfather's 90th birthday tomorrow. SEE YA.