Just a day. Just an ordinary day. Just trying to get by.

I woke up grumpy. Morning can way to fast and my eyes were not ready to wake. I get dresses, brush through my hair, and add to little braids on the left side of my hair (going for the fun, hippy, beach look.) This simple process took longer that it should have making time rush by and before I knew it I was running out of the house to my car pool without a lunch and my bag barley zipped. 

First period did nothing but add to my desperate want to fall back asleep. Notes, notes, and more notes. She was just repeating the exact words in the book. Her voice traveled into one ear of my head. Swam around my brain and exited. While leaving the words yank down on my already falling eye lids. I force to keep them open. Then the bell rang. I checked my grade: B+, and walked away. "wait was that really mine?" I turned back around and checked again. Yes that is my student number. My eyes we not just paying tricks on me. I actually have a B+ in AP biology. An image I believe until this morning could only be dreamt. 

I pushed my way down the hall, being thrown around like bumper cars or the ball in pinball, until I reached photography. I sat down. Some kid was sitting next to me. I looked up at him. He looked like he was a biblical character. His beard look just like the pictures and in his eyes and strong willed determination. He did say much the whole class. Just bowed his head every time he was spoken to. It was like sitting next to deaf Jesus. 

When the final bell rang I stood standing in the door way of my next class. Math. On the board was a new seating arrangement. My eyes scanned for my name....A....A....Anthony...no, Audrey. There right in front of Anthony. Could this be true? Maybe the kid in photo was Jesus and he just answered my prayers. I was to sit in front of the boy I desperately find the cutest thing to happen in math class. Problem was that sure when I turned around to hand it homework or ask him a question I could see him, but I wouldn't be able to look at the back of his head like before. Now my head was his view. I guess that's fine. I still sit next to him.  I took my seat, Anthony behind me with his music cranked. ACDC screaming out of his head phones. At least he has good taste in music. ACDC never made a bad song. The next 40 minutes consisted of Mr.Hair trying to control the whiny mob called our class. He would repeat over and over the same things and still Kellen and Jason will not understand the simple equation. So what do we do? Repeat. And Repeat. And Repeat. Finally the bell. 

I sat in the middle of a crowd but could hear no one. I sat there wishing I was where I am now. I saw Xavier sitting by himself. I thought of going and sitting next to him, but I don't know him (other than his name) and he doesn't know me. I didn't have a lunch. My stomach growled as my heart ached for an escape route. Ached for home. I clicked my heels together, closed my eyes, and said "there is o place like home" a few times. But when I lifted my lids I still sat in a cafeteria that was slowly emptying. I grabbed my books realizing the bell had rung and walked to AP world history. 

I sat in my seat, in the back of the class, next to the door and waited as the other students entered laughing and took there seats. I didn't want to be there. Class started and our tests we passes out. I failed. In fact I got a grade that is after F. I hate this feeling. The feeling of Failure. Even though you tried so hard and studied you still end up with a score that looks like the kids next to you who doesn't do anything. But this time his was better. I tried to laugh it off, but the pain stuck. To make it all worse. Mr. McN. kept calling on "the girl in the yellow shirt" for answers. I didn't know some of them and the people in front of me would turn and give me a weird glance. A look of taunt. I was humiliated. Katelin said my face was red, I tried to blame it on the room temperature. She didn't buy it. 

Car pool took me home. And now I am here. Hungry but there is nothing to eat. Sleepy but my eyes will now not close. 

Its just a day. Just and Ordinary day. Just trying to get by. 

Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness.

This weekend has been crazy beyond belief. I have had the worst to the best time! I hope yours way as amazingly amazing as mine. 

Mood: I feel really good. I feel refreshed, relaxed, happy, and amazing! I do feel a little sad that it is indeed Sunday evening and tomorrow the alarm will ring loudly and I will have to force myself out of bed and back in to the life of a student- but lets not think of that. 

Listening Too: My dog snoring. I am not kidding. He is down stairs and I can still hear him!

Quote of the Moment: "You skate regular but I find you kind of goofy." 

(if you don't get it don't worry-- you have to know your skate styles to get it...hee hee) 

Headlines: 

• My Father is home. YAY! 
• Friday was the end of term. Which is nice. That also means I have no more hell (oops health) 2nd period anymore. 
• FYI- I hate when people blow up at you just because they are having a bad day! (aka drama class friday afternoon.......supposed bff) 
• On Friday night i got really sick. I was dizzy, cold, and couldn't breathe. I almost passed out and then almost went to the ER. I recovered. 
• Saturday was the DANCE! I rested all day (because i wasn't feelin so hot the night before) The dance was so much fun. I will give details later. 
• Can I just say that Jade and Krew- you guys are the best!! 
• Thursday, Friday and Saturday is the FIS World Cup @ deer valley!! I am so excited!!!!!!!!

Just Wondering: What I am doing at schoolio tomorrow.... 

Special: THE SADIE HAWKINS'S DANCE 

Oh my god! It was so much fun. It all started at 7:20 when I left to pick my date (Joe) up and Katelin and Christian. We went to The Spaghetti Factory and had a marvelous time.

Then it was off to the dance. The theme was neon so we all got glow sticks and just danced and had a party!! way too much fun. It was really hot and afterwards I felt grody. 

Afterwards a big van was waiting for in with the driver by the name of Steve. We went to Olympus Lanes Bowling Alley! It was amazing. I actually did pretty well. Ha ha Xavier said "I kicked some ass!" 

It was definitely a night to remember. 

 

Using my emergency flashers---

Funny Story- Don't worry its not about me (hee hee) 

Yesterday I had a flat tire on the interstate

So I ease my car over to the shoulder of the road, carefully, get out of the car and open the trunk.

I took out two cardboard men, unfolded them and stood them at the rear of my car facing oncoming traffic.

They look so life like you wouldn't believe it! They are in trench coats exposing their nude bodies and private parts to the approaching drivers..

To my surprise, cars start slowing down looking at my life like men. And of course, traffic starts backing up. Everybody is tooting their horns and waving like crazy.

It wasn't long before a state trooper pulls up behind me. He gets out of his car and starts walking toward me. I could tell he was not a happy camper. 

"Whats going on here?"

"I have a flat tire." I said calmly

"Well what the hell are those two obscene cardboard men doing here by the road?"

I couldn't believe that he didn't know!

So I told him "HELLOOO those are my emergency flashers!!!"

things happen, but we don't know the reason.

Hi. Today was different. It was a beautiful day. The sun was out, the sky was blue, but still it seemed a bit darker than usual. And it made me sad not to see any constructive criticism comments on my last post...

Mood: I am doing alright. I am still in shock that my friend's brother committed suicide last night. Its pretty amazing how one moment can change a life. I can't imagine being the family. They lost a son, a brother, and a wonderful person. I didn't know the victim personally but he seemed to have a wonderful personality through pictures and stories I have heard. If he is anything like his sister and my friend, then he must have been funny, thoughtful, and kind. 

Listening Too: my heartbeat

Quote of the Moment: 

"Some random person just called me hot"

"Well you are hot, so that makes two"

Headlines: 

• I woke up this morning and couldn't fall back asleep. It was 4 am. .  .
• I didn't eat breakfast.
• I went to my grandmother's house today and made divinity. For those who haven't had it before its like a marshmallow... but BETTER!
• AT 11:30 I went to Lilly's and decorated our dance shirts. I think they turned out really nice. Mine are green with gold stripes. (Let me just say that I was jealous of Isabelle's very much... and still am.) ( Pictures will be up soon)
• That took a long time...
• I have a head ache still for inhaling all the spray paint
• I have a baked potato for dinner
• I am texting Joe... or at least was
• My toes are cold.
• Father is coming home soon.
• SKIING TOMORROW! Deer Valley here I come. I have missed you. 
• I never want to go back to school.
• I hate it when people say stupid stuff

Just Wondering: What are we going to do with out a president who is such a ding dong as Bush was? OBAMA!

Random Fact: I do skateboard. I am not pro. I can stand on a board. Yes, I can skate. 

No, I hate Ryan Shecklar. Yes, I have met some very cute skate guys. No, I am not dating one. 

Funny Moment: I was pealing pomegranates today and one of the seeds broke and squirted juice in my eyes. It hurt so bad. I went to wipe it off and I ended up putting more in my eye cause I had red juice all over my Hand. My sister had to wipe my eye. :)

Oops I Forgot: Here are some pictures that I have found or taken and just really like! Enjoy. 

This is my eye. I actually put my eye up to the camera on the computer on Photo Booth. Good thing no one was watching cause I am sure I looked pretty hysterical.

I found this picture and added some color to it in Photoshop. I thought the color showed the power of the trick.

I love sunsets. When I saw this flower.. it made it even more beautiful. 

Goodnight. And remember to live each day like it is not only your last, but the people you love the most last. You never know when their life might end too. Loves. 

cute is what we aim for.

Hey. Its been a while. Okay not really only like three days. Its Thursday, I think. Today was pretty normal. I don't really like Thursdays cause I think they are slow and take forever. Well here is the update:

Mood: I am happy but confused, tired but giddy, creative but original, mad but wait I'm not mad. 

Listening Too: "Moan" Cute is What we Aim For

Quotes of the Moment: 

I saw a parking sign today in the Highland Parking lot that said "Ass Principal Parking" How would you like to be the "Ass Principal" You must be pretty special to get that spot. I wonder if people ever fight over it... hmm. 

Person 1: "Your the Kool- aid Dad!"

Person 2: " I don't think you would want to be the Kool Aid guy. Hes a fat pitcher in small shorts, with little arms. "KOOL AID SINGLES" and you wonder why he is single..."

Headlines: 

• I'm excited for the dance, but I am kind of worried if Joe will have fun and not feel weird around my friends. 
• Yesterday I made a fool of my self. I know what you are thinking "she does that all the time" but yesterday it was in front of my English class. We had to do these oral book reports. I was the 2nd one to go... I was doing good but then I saw all of them looking at me and I got nervous. I'm sure my face was red because it felt like it was inflamed. I think my report was too short, but oh well. Its over. I get  my grade tomorrow. 
• My Dad comes home soon.
• Tomorrow is Friday (cause today is Thursday)
• I like watching the American Idol auditions but I hate when they make fun of them even if they are truly horrid
• I cant do my french homework because I can barley speak English and its hard.
• There is this X Dance thing tomorrow night and I want to go real bad. 
• My sister won the Reflection contest and is going on to state. She made a movie with all these pictures she has taken from our family vacations. 
• I really like photography.
• I hate when people complain about everything.
• It made me sad when I heard how rude this boy was about not responding to my friend when she asked him to the dance. Butt Face. 

Just Wondering: Do you have any comments about my blog? Constructive Criticism? Do you like the new lay out or hate it? Is the whole sectioning thing annoying? Tell me what you think... and be brutal! I can handle the truth! 

Random Fact: My favorite colors are yellow, orange, and red. And I like the shade black 

Funny Moment: My phone just buzzed and I picked up my stack of flash cards thinking it was my phone. 

Oops I forgot: Here are some fun pictures: 

Im going to Sadies!

So I asked a friend to the dance...

And he replied! 

Hey. There.

I am asking some one to the dance. End of Story. 

Much about Nothing.

I do not know why but I am pretty sure that wednesdays are like my favorite day of the week. Sure, I love fridays and Saturdays, but Wednesday are da bomb. I love them. They always seem to turn out to be wonderful days for me. Who knows! Call me crazy, but I am wild for Wednesdays. 

Mood: Pretty amazingly amazing. I have dance this evening and its wonderful. I havent been able to prance around in my studio for four weeks now, because I had drivers education for two weeks and then it was holiday break for the U. I am super excited to see all my friends and do what I love. 

Listening Too: "On the outside looking in" By: Jordan Pruitt 

"You dont know my name. You dont know my name. I have the right to play nice. I wanna be in your game.... if you could read my mind. You might see more of me that meets the eye. And you been all wrong. Now who do you think I am. Youve never given me a chance."

Quote of the Moment: Text Message Convo: 

Girl 1: "What does IDK mean?"

Girl 2: "I dont know"

Girl 1: "Oh my god no one knows what it means!" 

Headlines: 

• My cousin John is staying at my house and I love it! 
• My mom got a facebook. ha ha 
• My dad is in France
• I have a lot of home work I should be doing.
• I am watching Bring It On: All or Nothing ---- ba ha ha Cheerleaders are funny
• I dont have much to say. 

Random Fact: My feet are always cold. 

Bye Bye! Mwah! 

Sound the alarm! I went back to school!

Ah. I hate Mondays. I hate Mondays even more when they are right after break. Goodness. My day was so long and all i had on my mind was a beach. With an Ocean, sunshine and surfers! 

Ap Biology: 

• We watched a movie about heart surgery. A Docu- Drama as Mrs. Story called it. The lead Doctor in it was the same guy who is Snape in the Harry Potter movies. His voice always sounds so plain and unintresting. And he never smiles. I hate when people never smile. 
• I also found out that I have to do all my vocabulary words by Friday. Joy. That is like a lot of words! 

Photography: 

• Let me tell you, if I had a car (and could drive it) I would have left that class with out thinking about it. 
• We did nothing.
• Our mission of the day was to look at the New York Time's Year in Pictures for 2008. Let me say, those were pretty amazing and I highly recommend checking them out. Each one I viewed and stayed in my mind was about the hard ships of people in other countries. It was terrifying. 
• The earth quake that struck the unstable grounds of China causing as school to collapse was the worse. The picture of the dead children;s parents and class mates. I couldnt imagine what that would feel like. To be trapped. It is my worst fea.
• The one photo that stoodout in my mind was the picture of a dead child. His body was covered in by a cloth and was being carried away from the sight y his famile on a wooden board. His hand was uncovered. Layed within his dead hand was a pen.
• It is an amazing thing how such a simple object can mean so much. 
• The class was so boring.
• It was overly hot and uncofertable in the class room. And some one put to much smell stuff on. Does anyone know when to stop spraying the bottle of cologne. Eww. 
• To top things off I sat next to the two most energetic Twilight Fans. The both finnished reading all the books AGAIN over the break and saw the movie numerous times. I got to hear them go through every part of anything twilight. Dissecting it like a frog. 

Math: 

• Talk about boring. Alll we did was a re- veiw in groups.
• I was paired up with this annoying kid who talks way to much and didn't know basic math such as addition and subtraction.
• That was a moment I wished they sold paitence in the vending machines. 

AP World History:

• I froze in a fire drill that lasted 30 minutes. It was snowing. 
• I died of boredom. 

Hope you day was way better then mine! 

See ya! 

Life is good I can't complain. I mean I could but no one's listening.

Today would be the first Saturday that i would dread to ever come! It means that I only have one more day until I have to step back in to the dreaded halls of "Education Plaza!" (aka SCHOOL!) Oh well. Who new that two weeks could g by so fast. Time is moving way to fast. Its heading down the highway traveling way over the speed limit!!! 

Today was a kick back and do what you would like day. I went to the wonderf

ul shopping and entertainment area of Gateway Mall! Me and my sister went and saw a movie and then went shopping. I got this really cheap ($6.00) tank top from Forever 21. I usually don't even go in this store, but i was looking for a special bag (hobo sack) and I thought it might be in there. I went in. Ugh. Its overwhelming and a mess. Sure its not very expensive but you buy something, wear it, wash it, its ruin. And whats with the whole we don't they you return anything policy. I mean its like they know there clothes are of poor quality. Goodness. Anyways- it was a wonderful day! 

Marley and Me -----

I absolutely loved this movie to the greatest amount! It was truly an emotion roller coaster! At some points you were laughing, crying, worried, and in awe. It is definitely a must see. I really liked it because it would relate to everyone who has or had a dog (pet) that they loved oh so much. There were points where I thought of my huge puppy and how he is getting old, just like in the movie. 

It was adorable. 

My Newest Addictions: 

1. Mario- Kart for the Wii has been my families new addition to our collection. This game is something exciting and that all my family has gotten into. Through this game objects have been knocked over, i was hit in the head with a remote, and tackled, swear words have leaked, and sore thumbs have become an everyday pain. We even got my 90 year old grandmother playing it. She had a blast and can not stop talking about how well she did ("and how great it would be to own one, but you grandfather wouldn't like it") 
2. "Like whoa" By: Aly and A.J. For Christmas my Aunt gave me Disney Sing It for the Wii. It is all the songs from Disney Stars and Disney Channel Movies. You have to reach the right notes and sing the right words. Pretty Difficult if you ask me (who is singing challenged!) Through this I have learned all the words to this song and it is perfectly amazingly amazing. 
3. Spaghetti and Meatballs- I didn't know it tasted so good after you hadn't had it for a while! 
4. Waiting for someone to reply to a message. You know when you get in habit to talking to someone like at least once everyday and then suddenly it goes back to normal- meaning they don't talk to you unless they need something. 
5. Skype. It is an easy way to communicate with my Father who is in Austria. You can not only do instant messaging but also call each other and do a web cam! Its fun!
6. Mamma Mia Sound Track. Santa brought it to me for Christmas and I just love singing my heart out to the songs. Goodness. My favorite are "Honey, Honey", "Lay all your Love on me" and "Gimme Gimme a man after Midnight."

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Pretty Exciting stuff right!? I know I know. Um.... hmmm.... I guess I have written out of words to waste with ink. (I will think of what i wanted to say the minute I get in bed, I will come back to write it down tomorrow and will encounter the same dilemma.) 

Well------- Goodnight!!!! 

x0x0

a new YEAR, a new LOOK, a new ME

Dude if you haven't noticed it is 2009. Oh my goodness.  Who would ever have thought that 2009 would come so fast. I remember when people we so excited for 2000. Ha ha that was about nine years ago. 

My New Year: This year wasn't the best of ringin' in the New Year. On the 31st (of duh! December) I had my friend Lindsay over. I had kind of invited her over like a month ago because I knew that her family wouldn't do anything (and I know how much her Mother dislikes her and I wanted to hang with her at least once over the break.) But I kind of did it with out thinking about what my family would be feeling. I found out a little to late that they were not to thrilled about it. In fact they were okay with Lindsay but when Lindsay said that she was bringing Becca, they were a little upset. Okay a lot upset. I completely ruined their night. Anyways. Lindsay came over (Becca was out to dinner with her father) and we chilled for a bit. Then we went to Katelin's house. It was a mistake. Why was it a mistake: 

1. They strongly dislike Lindsay.... (and yet I told her we should go. Again I was only thinking of myself. 
2. Spencer and Rachel were there (I have gotten over the whole thing between Me and Spencer but he still acts like I am the worst person. And Rachel was giving me dirty looks. I like her, but i guess when you piss off the boy you piss off the girl too) 
3. They all had their inside jokes and tight friendships.
4. I felt awkward. 
5. I sat to the side and was quite. A wall flower. 

Then we left with Sam to his house and just chilled. It was pretty boring. I also had to deal with Becca and Sam flirting and more inside jokes. We came back to my house around 11:30. (We= Lindsay, Becca, Sam and Me.... aka much more then me or my parents wanted) The ball dropped we celebrated. I tried to look happy. The minute they left I went to apologize to my Mother. I ended up running to my room and broke down crying. (what I was crying bout is not a story for everyone to know) My Dad came in and tried to make me feel better and then my Mother too. It didn't help.  I cried for the first hour of 2009. 

My New Year Resolutions: 

• Exercise more (aka lose weight ha ha) 
• get straight A's and pass Mrs. Story's class with flying colors
• Eat Healthier
• Write more Thank You cards
• try harder to get involved with a group of friends so I am invited more often and feel more a part of something then I do now
• Write on this more!!! ha ha

Random quick Notes: 

1. I'm going shopping tomorrow and seeing Marley and Me with my sista
2. I really wanted to hang out with Joe, Patrick, and Ryan over the break but I never did
3. I think I like someone, but I have a feeling he wont talk to me as much after break (We don't go to the same school either...) 
4. I don't want to go to school on Monday.
5. I need help on my biology.
6. I need to work on my presentation for English
7. The Utes are WINNING!
8. I re-did my room. I put new carpet in (brought to me by Santa) and cleaned and organized
9. My Father left to AUSTRIA  for 18 days today to run a world cup ski event
10. I made a cork board with like 200 wine corks today. We have been saving them for a few years and I finally did something with them. Ha ha Its was cool to see all the designs on the corks. I mean  most people look at the label of a wine bottle but never the cork. Check them out next time! 

I think everyone needs to smile more! 

Love you.

xoxo

"Change: if only it was as easy as a campaign slogan."