a new YEAR, a new LOOK, a new ME

Dude if you haven't noticed it is 2009. Oh my goodness.  Who would ever have thought that 2009 would come so fast. I remember when people we so excited for 2000. Ha ha that was about nine years ago. 

My New Year: This year wasn't the best of ringin' in the New Year. On the 31st (of duh! December) I had my friend Lindsay over. I had kind of invited her over like a month ago because I knew that her family wouldn't do anything (and I know how much her Mother dislikes her and I wanted to hang with her at least once over the break.) But I kind of did it with out thinking about what my family would be feeling. I found out a little to late that they were not to thrilled about it. In fact they were okay with Lindsay but when Lindsay said that she was bringing Becca, they were a little upset. Okay a lot upset. I completely ruined their night. Anyways. Lindsay came over (Becca was out to dinner with her father) and we chilled for a bit. Then we went to Katelin's house. It was a mistake. Why was it a mistake: 

1. They strongly dislike Lindsay.... (and yet I told her we should go. Again I was only thinking of myself. 
2. Spencer and Rachel were there (I have gotten over the whole thing between Me and Spencer but he still acts like I am the worst person. And Rachel was giving me dirty looks. I like her, but i guess when you piss off the boy you piss off the girl too) 
3. They all had their inside jokes and tight friendships.
4. I felt awkward. 
5. I sat to the side and was quite. A wall flower. 

Then we left with Sam to his house and just chilled. It was pretty boring. I also had to deal with Becca and Sam flirting and more inside jokes. We came back to my house around 11:30. (We= Lindsay, Becca, Sam and Me.... aka much more then me or my parents wanted) The ball dropped we celebrated. I tried to look happy. The minute they left I went to apologize to my Mother. I ended up running to my room and broke down crying. (what I was crying bout is not a story for everyone to know) My Dad came in and tried to make me feel better and then my Mother too. It didn't help.  I cried for the first hour of 2009. 

My New Year Resolutions: 

• Exercise more (aka lose weight ha ha) 
• get straight A's and pass Mrs. Story's class with flying colors
• Eat Healthier
• Write more Thank You cards
• try harder to get involved with a group of friends so I am invited more often and feel more a part of something then I do now
• Write on this more!!! ha ha

Random quick Notes: 

1. I'm going shopping tomorrow and seeing Marley and Me with my sista
2. I really wanted to hang out with Joe, Patrick, and Ryan over the break but I never did
3. I think I like someone, but I have a feeling he wont talk to me as much after break (We don't go to the same school either...) 
4. I don't want to go to school on Monday.
5. I need help on my biology.
6. I need to work on my presentation for English
7. The Utes are WINNING!
8. I re-did my room. I put new carpet in (brought to me by Santa) and cleaned and organized
9. My Father left to AUSTRIA  for 18 days today to run a world cup ski event
10. I made a cork board with like 200 wine corks today. We have been saving them for a few years and I finally did something with them. Ha ha Its was cool to see all the designs on the corks. I mean  most people look at the label of a wine bottle but never the cork. Check them out next time! 

I think everyone needs to smile more! 

Love you.

xoxo

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