Im just loving life!

Oh my goodness!!!I drove for the first time today! It was so exciting. My Father took me up to Highland HIgh to their little round about practice do dah thing. I working forever to try and understand that when driving a stick you have to push that pedal that I cant remeber the name of, before changing gears. I only stalled the car a few times. And when driving through Sugar House Park I only got flipped off once. Yay! Just you wait, once i get my license (or my permit ha ha) I will be the driving queen, just you wait!

Tonight my family had a party for my Father's departure to China for the Olympics. (He is producing the filming for sailing) We went to dinner at Trios. The food was way delicious and the waiter was slightly cute (He also was wearing these Prada glasses that were amazingly amazing) Afterwards we had a movie in the backyard and watched Step Up 2 'the streets'. That film was so sweet! The dancing was incredible (for those who didnt know, I dance, Im not very good at the whole "do it the right way" with the pointed toes and piroettes that turn for hours. I freestyle. I beleive it means more if it come from the heart. Dancing is the movement of life, expression of feeling, and it can tell a story. You can do that through the professional stuff, but not if you are following the rules. Besides, Rules are made to be broken. You just have to know them and bend them the right way.) It was all break and hip hop. I would deffinetly recomend it!

I sit hear writing this with a grin on my face. I have no true reason to be happy. I havent fallen in love and I didnt just win a million dollars. Im just loving life.

Named: Unknown

Hey, its me. I'm not sure what I'm going to rant about tonight, but stay with me. I just finished watching Penelope for the 2nd time in a row. It was an amazing film, romance and fairytale of course. It left you with the best feeling. Its all about loving who you are as you are, and not worrying about what others will think out you. I don't know, but You should all check it out.

Speaking about liking who you are, I went to the pool today. No no, I'm not going to talk about how I hate how I look in my swim suit, blah blah. I was laying out, right, and these two girls where in the chairs next to me. They looked like they were ten. Both were pretty and looked like they could fit into the "popular" groups of the 4th grade. The one started talking about suicide. I started to listen in (not ease dropping- listening in) I was interested in why these two young girls were talking about suicide. The one said something about afraid to talk to her Mom about getting medication. The other girls responded by telling her about how talking to her parents about her depression and how she got stronger meds. I couldn't believe the bits and pieces i was hearing. These girls were serious. Two ten year olds talking about suicide. I just cant imagine life being so terrible that I would think that taking my life would solve anything. These girls were cute. They weren't over weight and were not too skinny. I just cant imagine it. I don't know. It was just unreal.

“There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout:

This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.

When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.”

Tonight my sister threw a little party. She went all out and made invitations inviting my mom, dad, and myself. She went bought ice cream and little party favors all with her own money. After dinner we walked up and rented a movie *Explanation for Penelope* It was so thoughtful for her. It made me realize how much she does for me. Im so thankful for my sister. I need to do more for people, the simple things to make someones day.

Well...til next time! Later!

She's Back....... Sound the Alarm.

I back. Woohoo. And if you couldn't tell I'm not very excited. Its hot here in Utah, like really hot.

I'm super sad that the tour is over and super annoyed with Anthony (the kid who works with my dad) who is moving out of my basement tomorrow. (Finally)

Is it bad that I don't want to be home??

Its not like i will be happy to see my friends and here about their fun times and such, i just would rather be running a skate event. I don't know, i feel cooler or my popular when I'm out doing an event that people appreciate (and know my name). And its much colder up in Oregon and such! ha ha

In my last post i mentioned Tony and Alex. They didn't show up to the finals. (Stupid gas prices) I had Alex's shoes on and was ready to give Tony his glasses back. It didn't happened. That was the only bad thing (other than anthony)

Mikey Ofriel won which i was excited about cause he is super amazing (sweet and cute too)

I don't know what to say but, I'm not happy it ended.

Overal. I dont want this to end.

Right now I am in Grants Pass Oregon, sitting in a coffee shop. So much has happened this last month i have been away that i dont want to go home. I love traveling to a new place everyday and meeting the coolest people. You may think that I have gotten homesick, but i really havent. The only thing i miss is my Mom and Gabrielle. My friends I have relized can certinally survive without me. Ha Ha. I have made so many new ones. There is that group that travels with us, following us through every event who have become a new little family for me. Im going to write the quick update on my adventure. If I was to write the whole thing you would be here for days!

First of all for those who didnt catch the last post I have been gone since July 4th. I have done a total number of 12 events so far and still have three more to go.

I have sun fried my thighs so bad i couldnt even walk for two or three days and now the back of them have white blisters. It still hurts but i can move thankfully.

I have began to realize how lucky I am to have the life i have. I have been working with a guy who dropped out od Highschool his freshman year and has delt with more sex and drugs that anyone and he is only 17. I have seen the most severe cases of ADD, but those same people are amazing skaters. I have met people who live in the park and have nothing but the clothes on their back and a skateboard and save up all there money just to compete in our events.

While on the road i have created a clothing company that will someday be amazing, called My Bad Clothing Co. (Why "My Bad"? Its the common skater saying that doesnt have a meeting at all. WHen you say "MY BAD" you are not saying sorry, taking blame, or really caring about what happened at all.)

Knuckles are over rated. Elbows in the new thing.

Skaters are some of the sweetest poeple you meet.

Vans are the coolest shoes ever!

I have become friends with these two kids. Tony and Alex. They are about 12 but are way cooler than any of the guys i have met back home. They are so sweet and really funny. For finals Alex is going to get my black vans and Im going to get me a pair of his red ones. Tony has these aviators he let me borrow. I wore them all day looking good. He left early and i still have his glasses. He has been with out them for a few days, im keeping them safe for him for finals. Oops!

For all you guys who think that my trip has been a vacation like no other, think agian. Its a work trip and I only have stayed in a hotel for five out of my 25 night trip. I have slept everywhere- campgrounds, skateparks, by the lakes rivers and streams, under railroad tracks. Its been amazing. I wake up every morning at 6 AM and go to the skate park and un laod a large truck full of boxers, generators, tables, chairs, speakers, amps. I run the event in whatever weather it is and usally end around 5 pm. Just in time to load everything back up. Leaving the park around 7 or 8. I have had Mexican food for dinner everynight. (YUM!)I have a breakfast of a mocha and maybe a fruit. No lunch or snacks during the event. And I freakin love it!!!!!

I have gotton better at skateboarding and have skated every park we passed.

Carmel Mochas and Frapps are amazingly amazing!

But overal. I dont ever want this to end.

I'm gone. Did you notice?

I'm leaving. Tomorrow. In about seven hours. I will be heading off on my adventure on the road with the Concrete Rodeo Tour and I am excited. I cant wait to get out and have a vacation. I'm sick of the drama between my friends. I want to meet new people, go cool places, and build memories as tall as sky scrapers. This is my chance to make my summer amazing.

Back to reality for now: The whole thing between Spencer and I hasn't seem to reached its healing. He doesn't talk to me. And if he does, its cause he has to. He looks away when he talks to me. I'm ready to leave. Maybe when I'm gone he can get his head to order. Doubt it. I don't want to sound like a hater, but I'm sick of how he has been treating me. I say one thing and I'm blamed for everything. I'm getting talked badly about just because I'm best friends with some one they don't like cause she is not like them.

There are fireworks booming outside even though its only the 3rd. The 4th of July has never been a holiday i look forward to every year. I like it, ts just not my favorite. But once you know you wont be home for the usual festivities you cant help being sad. ha ha.

I don't have much to say. But it feels like a lot of the people around me are breaking down. I hope you all get better. If you need some one to talk to I'm here (even if I'm there i have a cell phone for a reason) Love you all. Forever and Always.

xoxo

One more day for a crush in IKEA. . .

Today was hot. Like extremely. I was melting. I also went to IKEA. That store scares me like crazy. It is so big, i always feel overwhelmed! I got lost from my little family group and the map didn't help. I went through every section, twice, before i was where i wanted to be. My hint is if you ever go there stick with your buddy or bring a walki talki cause there is no service. lol

One more day until i leave for my month long work vacation and I am so excited!! I leave on Friday, bright and early, to Buhl Idaho, where i will help run a Concrete Rodeo Skate event that very same day. I cant wait! It will be a trip with just my Dad (and Anthony) but it will be way fun. My mom and sister will be meeting up with us in Seaside Oregon on the 12Th so they can pick me up to go to Depot Bay! yay! I love the ocean. Its my favorite place ( i don't like to be out in it all that much but the sand and the sunsets. Water splashing on my toes! Its the greatest) I will be gone the whole month. I'm kind of sad i will be away from my friends. I feel like they already have a stronger bond without me and I don't want them to forget me. I know they wont really, but when i get back, they will have there jokes (at least alot more than now) with each other and such. Memories created. But oh well.

Remember a few posts ago i mentioned a boy that I had stayed up all night talking to? I think I might like him. But I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back. I don't know. That's all i had to say on that subject of matter, ha ha. I just felt like it should have been written. Ha Ha I hope you people who read this aren't asleep yet. Love you lots. Forever and Always!

xoxo

Sweet Tarts, but no Sweet Hearts?

Im sitting in my room. Tank top on and my little girl boxer shorts because it is so hot in my house (we don't have air conditioner) Im eating sweet tarts. One of the most amazing candies ever made. I havent had them for a while so they taste so good. I remember when I was little one of my friends told me that I can't eat sweet tarts. If I do i wouldnt get a sweet heart, and i beleivd her for a few years. Now a few more years later Im sitting eating them, no sweetheart, wondering if she was right in 1st grade. Just kidding.

At 3:30 my aunt came and took me and my little sister for our annual swim suit shopping. I got two new suits that I am superly excited about. (I needed them too) I cant wait to wear them on the beach in a few days! Watch out Depo Bay!( I just had to put a picture on!!)

Okay so i have a question. When you leave a comment, and I want to respond to your question or what not, should i write it under my blog or write my response on your blog. Cause sometimes i feel like when i leave it on my blog the person doesnt read my response....So leave a comment with an answer please and Thank you!

I dont have much more to say. I hope you guys are having a great summer! Forever and Always!